It Just Knocks Me Out
Jul 31st, 2005 by admin
I am a proud papa of 3: a 15 year old girl, a 14 year old boy and a 14 month old girl. The teens are my wife’s from a previous marriage (and mine from this marriage) 
I enjoy being their dad, but they make it pretty clear that they do not view me that way. They have a dad, I’m the guy their mom decided to marry. I still treat them and consider them my own and am always looking for a little of my influence in their actions and mannerisms. I’ve know them for 7 years now and though it’s been hard, I really appreciate them.
With the Pea-pod, I get knocked out daily. Not because she is mine by blood, but because I didn’t get to experience these moments with the other two. The other day I was being goofy, doing stupid jumps into the pool. Every time I surfaced, there was Baby Girl, clapping for me, the ray of sunshine that is her smile warming me. I’ve never had this situation where someone in my life looks up to me unconditionally. I am her hero just because I am her daddy. It’s overwhelming and a bit intimidating. I’ve never had any trouble being Me–for good and bad–but Jo-Jo makes me want to be Me, but BETTER. It’s inspiring I guess. I just realized that what I see in her eyes is how I feel about her: I am awed, I adore her, I could watch her for hours without blinking, I look forward to the next adventure, the next milestone, the next word that comes out of her mouth.
Being a parent is awesome…
